Times are Tough

7/16/2007

happy birthday Allison, hope you have a great birthday. happy anniversary nana and papa, another year down and you are still kicking. that is great. good work.

yeah, so I officially had the worst week of my entire mission, it stunk, I have never been so bad, I didn’t want to do absolutely anything. I didn’t want anything with anything. I am having a really really hard time with my companion. I don’t know what to do, I have lost all patience I ever had. I have been on the mission for over a year and never had real problems with my companion until now. we have to have confrontations about every day. She has problems and I don’t know how to help her. she is self esteem problems and is always wanting all the attention and if someone gives me attention she gets mad. she isn’t happy. I had the worst day on my mission the other day and she was totally happy, it was her best day. Things like that are wearing me down. You all know that I am not a person that cries. I had an interview with the president the other day. he asked me one thing and I have kept it all in for three weeks, well I told my comp the other day everythingggggg I thought because she always tells me how I need to change and what I need to do for her so she can be happy. well, lets just say in my interview I cried for about a half hour with him. it stunk but he understands what I am going through and is sorry for everything that is happening. I know we have to be here together, I know the lord sent us both here, I don’t doubt that, I just don’t know what to do. she has got so many problems that he said that if she doesn’t change soon she is going to have to go home and we don’t want that. he said that for some reason the lord put me with her so I could help her to grow up and change her. I don’t know how to do it. I don’t have the answers. I have felt so lost, empty, and sad. hna monsalve wrote me and it put the biggestttt smile on my face and hna agurto, they are planning on getting married her and her boyfriend. it seems like things have folded in on me. I think it is time that I am transferred but i would love to stay here igual. we will see in two more weeks. who knows. pres has written me and tried to give me words of advice to stick it through s o that i do what is right.

okay, I am sick of being negative. and I don’t want to talk more about her. i just had a really really sucky week and am over it and felt really crappy, the first time on my entire mission.

so this satruday, matthias, alejandra´s husband is getting baptized, I am sooooo pumped for that. it is so exciting, the lord works miracles in our lives, I love it. I am going to ask to see if we can go, plus I will be able to see them, even better. i really do love the mission, I love being able to meet people and bring joy into their lives. share with them the love i have felt in my life and the happiness. there is nothing better. we went touring a little today with a family here, we went to puerto octay. it was really really pretty. I loved it. we ate with a family the other day that live right on the lake, it is sooooo pretty. it is so pretty here, I it is incredible,

I hope everyone at home is going great, you are all in my prayers. I trust that the lord is taking care of you all. sorry I am not full of great things this week but today is a new day and it will all be different. and i will be able to see alejandra and matthias will get baptized. yeahhhhhhh.

love ya all,
hna jamie pratt