This is hard to see...but these are her shoes with holes in the soles and the small pebbles (rocks) she has removed from walking. I have sent her a new pair of shoes that she requested!
10/06/2007
Well, I am sorry I don’t write longer letters, there are just less new things. Things are the same ole same ole. Lately I haven’t really wanted to write much because I haven’t had too many good things to say. I have really had some hard times since I have been here in osorno. I have had a really really hard time with my companion this go around. It has been terrible. I have never talked to the president so much. The other day we even went to his house so she could talk to him. So it is just better not to mention much. I have never met anyone so incredibly dependent. And we all know how independent I am and how I just don’t have patience for that. But in the last two days things have gotten a little better. I have had a huge struggle within myself. Because I know that the bad feelings are my fault. When I get frustrated, when I don’t have the spirit, when I let her bug me. It is just so hard. But I am doing better. She is gotten better with some things too. On top of it all it is so hard when your companion takes away your agency, if she doesn’t want to work, neither can I. so that is why I have been so frustrated, I told her to quit wasting my mission, she can waste hers but not mine too. But things are much better.
Osorno is very very difficult. We have walked and walked and walked. It is incredible how much we have walked. We are in our own house now. It is cold again. It got a little warm and now cold and rainy again. It is spring time though. I miss the Allen’s, the couple missionaries. They are so awesome. They were like family, I miss chatting with them, they are great. I was very blessed to be with them, they helped me sooooooo much. It was amazing. They have taken care of us so much. I loved getting to know them. Yeah, so really I have zero time today because we have conference and it takes away our entire p-day but what can you do.
This time in my mission, since I have been in osorno has been one of the hardest times yet. For me, I have been stressed a lot. I am doing my best in doing here what the lord sent me to do. I miss teaching. We really don’t have investigators. I miss helping the people, focusing on them, studying for them, sharing my testimony with them, my love for them and the love that god has for them. I miss the normal things that you do on the mission other than just walking. Yesterday we didn’t even enter a house, we walked all afternoon and evening. But after the trails of your faith come the blessings. I just want to be happy again and be able to have investigators. I know the lord has protected us from these people here these last few weeks because we weren’t prepared for them, he didn’t want to ruin their chance. Hopefully we can get our act together so the lord can lead us to these people. We have seen a few small miracles. It is amazing how the lord puts us in people’s paths or how he puts them in our paths so we can find them and help them. I have never talked to sooooooooooooooooo many people in one day at a time. It is incredible. But I do love the mission. It is interesting how my challenges on the mission have changed in this year. A year ago I was in putna arenas and my challenge was with Spanish and I was with my good friend hna agurto. Now, the lord is refining me more and more by the trials I am faced with. But that is why we are here on the earth. I recognize it and accept it and only want to get through it with his help, he is working on me so much, and softening my heart.
happy birthday to kaylee!!
happy birthday to tracie!! tracie you have the same bday as my friend alejandra here!!
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